I have an urge to masturbate right now. But i decided not to. Instead I’m writing a few lines as a form of celebration.

Resisting impulses is not always easy. I know this first hand through years of jerking off, sleeping in, saying something inappropriate or just simply doing irrational thing.

I view those failures are a sign of poor willpower.

But is it? Or is it the lack of self-love?

The latter way to think about these is much more romantic and soothing for my taste. I’m loving myself right now for giving up on porn and masturbation.

But I still need to work on my sleeping schedule tho lol